2002-04-14, 9:22 p.m.
I want to be so much more
more than all of this
though, this is all i have
is it just a foolish wish?
more than the broken
broken shards of glass
more than the old
old drugs outside of class
i dream of being more
more than this, all of this
thought its so easy, dependable
is it just a foolish wish?
more than starving
starving myself for love
more than the fingers
the fingers in i shove
could i be so much more
more than this
i am use to these things
just a blind wish?
more than drawing blood
blood from my arms
more than dragging a blade
a blade to cause harm
more than the searching
searching for a way
to express the deep hate
I feel towards you each day
nothings strong enough
enough to show
show the hate i feel
from my head to my toes
i need something stronger
something to hurt more
express it for me
the hate from my core