2002-06-28, 9:49 p.m.
i feel angry. increadibly angry. i dont know at what or who or why i even feel this way. i just know i feel as if i am ready to exploade. exploade into screams or cries or slashes all down each of my forearms. something isnt right and something is weighing me down so much i ache all over. its like i physically hurt all over. there is this emptiness that hurts and aches and i can't fill it and i don't know what will fill it. all i know is that i want to disapear so these feelings will leave me alone.
im still at 100. 3 days at 100 and im hardly eating. damnit. i just really need to see 99 tommorow or i think i will exploade into screams or cries or slashes all down my arms.
hello razor. lets go play.