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2008-02-09 - moving
2008-01-01 - new years drunk bitch
2007-12-23 - moment of clarity
2007-10-11 - i give up
2007-06-16 - barely alive.
2007-06-16 - barely alive.
2007-05-10 - this is the worse week of my life.
2007-05-08 - -
2007-04-13 - when will it get bad enough?
2007-02-27 - i surrender
2007-02-07 - da-nile
2007-01-26 - I can't.
2007-01-16 - i am sleeping through life.
2007-01-07 - the end of ken
2007-01-04 - pop in
2006-12-24 - fucking sad
2006-12-19 - This christmas season.
2006-12-05 - mother rantings number 0040959565069234
2006-11-30 - redundant cries over a broken family
2006-11-14 - the latest of the drug princess
2006-11-07 - -
2006-11-04 - falling falling faster
2006-10-31 - slut
2006-10-22 - The drug hunt
2006-10-12 - i didn't mean to fuck up like this.
2006-10-08 - the latest
2006-10-02 - can't do reality
2006-09-26 - joe
2006-09-25 - losing it
2006-09-23 - should've would've could've
2006-09-20 - da' nile
2006-09-20 - -
2006-09-18 - i lose you win
2006-09-17 - meth the problem weed
2006-09-14 - hard times for all
2006-09-07 - reflections on hawaii
2006-10-05 - vacation woes
2006-09-01 - shit hits fan
2006-08-28 - violent
2006-08-24 - ponders.
2006-08-22 - longest day
2006-08-20 - the pipe keeps it all okay.
2006-08-17 - angryyy child.
2006-08-14 - now i can write more about it
2006-08-13 - -
2006-08-12 - something is wrong
2006-08-10 - a hole inside of me.
2006-08-08 - move it, shake it, groove it, take it
2006-08-06 - natural highs
2006-08-03 - more Joe
2006-08-01 - ruston who?
2006-07-31 - good day OMG
2006-07-29 - i'll be just fine.
2006-07-29 - I know not who I am.
2006-07-27 - i have no parents.
2006-07-26 - feeling is over rated
2006-07-25 - the ramblings of my mind
2006-07-24 - the cycle of using
2006-07-21 - pathetic
2006-07-20 - don't leave me
2006-07-18 - And you say to yourself, my god, what have I done?
2006-07-18 - time is killing me
2006-07-17 - i'm covering my ears, yelling LA LA LA
2006-07-16 - down down down she goes
2006-07-12 - fucked up while in session
2006-07-09 - i screwed up my life for good.
2006-07-07 - spinning plummeting
2006-07-05 - ADD
2006-07-04 - a diary entry on meth
2006-07-01 - shame and hate.
2006-06-29 - ADD test and ritalin high
2006-06-28 - ADD test
2006-06-26 - exhausted brain
2006-06-25 - Danielle
2006-06-24 - fucking drug dealers
2006-06-24 - ripped off
2006-06-21 - not afraid.
2006-06-20 - FUCK.
2006-06-18 - numb me.
2006-06-18 - lower than dirt
2006-06-14 - julio isn't god
2006-06-12 - you're always looking for something
2006-06-11 - frantically alone
2006-06-08 - concious of existance
2006-06-05 - i hate me
2006-06-03 - SOS
2006-06-01 - hole
2006-05-28 - I'm tired of being consumed by what I consume
2006-05-25 - bro
2006-05-23 - mid-day binge and pills
2006-05-17 - break down.
2006-05-17 - self-deprecating
2006-05-16 - Ben
2006-05-14 - I don't know a description.
2006-05-11 - I'm bailing as fast as I can.
2006-05-08 - Take 2
2006-05-07 - nothing
2006-05-07 - fuck trying.
2006-05-04 - Del Amo?
2006-05-03 - lost and mad
2006-04-28 - this is the first day of my life
2006-04-26 - Rita makes me cry.
2006-04-26 - bye st. joes.
2006-04-22 - Happy Birthday to me.
2006-04-19 - blues
2006-04-18 - not discharged
2006-04-17 - I want love.
2006-04-15 - raw throat
2006-04-14 - fuck
2006-04-12 - Burnt out from my thoughts
2006-04-08 - on my own.
2006-04-05 - Honesty
2006-04-03 - dsgdfg
2006-04-03 - my mother is crazy my mother is crazy my mother is crazy
2006-04-01 - pukey mcpukesalot
2006-03-29 - treatment team scariness
2006-03-26 - sexuality and emptiness
2006-03-24 - pukepukepukepuke
2006-03-22 - Rita force feeds me
2006-03-21 - -
2006-03-18 - week recap.
2006-03-13 - sick of being sick.
2006-03-11 - recovery ambivilance
2006-03-09 - bad day
2006-03-02 - Strives
2006-02-27 - I got the sucky ED
2006-02-26 - fat.
2006-02-24 - I feel good.
2006-02-18 - Purge high
2006-02-17 - truth
2006-02-10 - I abandoned diaryland
2006-02-03 - shitty day
2006-01-30 - family session disaster
2006-01-29 - quitting life.
2006-01-24 - getting kicked out. again.
2006-01-21 - I'm going to die from this
2006-01-17 - Discouraged and failing.
2006-01-16 - shaking nervous ahh
2006-01-14 - fucking craigslist
2006-01-13 - Out of control
2006-01-11 - Good day.
2006-01-09 - weird day at the buffett!
2006-01-09 - fucking night.
2006-01-05 - third time at treatment?
2006-01-04 - fuckity fuck.
2006-01-02 - attention whore. lonely as fuck.
2006-01-01 - not cut out to live. happy new year
2005-12-31 - i suck.
2005-12-28 - Blame me.
2005-12-27 - run run run
2005-12-22 - virgin.
2005-12-21 - -
2005-12-19 - Blah blahd;glkf
2005-12-18 - humoring happiness
2005-12-15 - So much fucking food and money
2005-12-12 - Discharge on Wed
2005-12-11 - E-mails
2005-12-10 - Sob.
2005-12-09 - misconceptions
2005-12-08 - Going back
2005-12-03 - give up
2005-12-01 - terribly stressed
2005-11-29 - fucking wreck
2005-11-27 - I left
2005-11-26 - Leaving on a jet plane
2005-11-20 - depressed then not so much
2005-11-18 - Long ass day
2005-11-17 - -
2005-11-16 - Torn
2005-11-15 - Calorie increase
2005-11-14 - ambivalence
2005-11-13 - empty inside
2005-11-10 - crazy days
2005-11-08 - I want to leave
2005-11-06 - things suck
2005-11-04 - want to b/p
2005-11-04 - screwed up.
2005-11-02 - the latest
2005-10-30 - fever
2005-10-28 - i hate oceanaire
2005-10-27 - going to oceanaire
2005-10-24 - early morning rant.
2005-10-21 - The latest
2005-10-19 - some updates.
2005-10-14 - inpatient vs out...lying.
2005-10-10 - i'm being booted.
2005-10-08 - update on treatment
2005-10-05 - shitty day.
2005-10-03 - i want to give up with program
2005-10-02 - loss 5 lbs
2005-09-29 - crying after lunch. ignorance.
2005-09-26 - sending me to IP
2005-09-24 - One week down of program
2005-09-20 - Day 3 of program
2005-09-16 - first day of day program
2005-09-14 - Going through the motions
2005-09-13 - Appointment for OP, BW
2005-09-12 - sick of these days. waking up sucks.
2005-09-11 - my teeth are rotting. yay.
2005-09-08 - Drugging up and down, outpatient appt
2005-09-05 - I HATE
2005-09-05 - Effing wreck
2005-09-01 - vomiting on myself
2005-08-30 - Partial???
2005-08-28 - air has calories
2005-08-25 - long ass entry.
2005-08-22 - I want to be normal
2005-08-19 - Late night binges getting out of control
8/16/05 - Losing control
2005-08-11 - two steps back. re:IP
2005-08-08 - Health worries
2005-08-02 - Julio appointment gone horribly wrong
2005-08-01 - going fucking nuts
2005-07-29 - Tick Tock Waiting For New Ip News
2005-07-27 - Julio appt in a blur
2005-07-27 - How low things have been as of late.
2005-07-25 - nothing is going on but everything.
2005-07-23 - fat fat fat fat
2005-07-20 - i'm too tired to think of a title
2005-07-18 - fucking out of control
2005-07-13 - Julio updates, treatment, old faces
2005-07-12 - rambles.
2005-07-11 - JUST PURGE
2005-07-08 - i'm so scared.
2005-07-02 - more steps towards treatment
2005-06-28 - nononononononononoonononononononon
2005-06-27 - Cards last night, Rader programs?
2005-06-25 - prison
2005-06-20 - I don't know but I do know
2005-06-15 - anxiety about acne cream
2005-06-13 - Last night. Moving once again.
2005-06-09 - incoherant entry
2005-06-07 - moving in with sister
2005-06-06 - ran away again.
2005-06-06 - buddy list
2005-06-05 - too late at night to think of title
2005-05-29 - greg and loneliness
2005-05-27 - things are getting old
2005-05-26 - get a grip
2005-05-24 - road blocks
2005-05-21 - dead end road
2005-05-18 - Ran away again?
2005-05-16 - so fucked up.
2005-05-11 - shadow of bulimia
2005-05-05 - police ...take 100000
2005-05-05 - police ...take 100000
2005-05-04 - Fucked up Doc Appt's
2005-05-03 - STOP GAINING
2005-05-01 - Only the lonely
2005-04-27 - sing me to sleep
2005-04-23 - I don't exist in the future
2005-04-21 - I'm not happy
2005-04-16 - Knock 'Em W/ Dad
2005-04-12 - Hole in Wall
2005-04-12 - Hole in the Door
2005-04-06 - everything is a wreck
2005-04-04 - worthless fucking fat piece of shit
2005-03-30 - Brawl with mom
2005-03-28 - I wanted the day to be over
2005-03-25 - Digging up memories
2005-03-22 - persistance is futile
2005-03-20 - 1 all over again
2005-03-19 - 26 Months
2005-03-17 - Out
2005-03-15 - insanity
2005-03-12 - defeated and beat down
2005-03-09 - skinny arm shock
2005-03-05 - It's gonna be a lonely, lonely, lonely day
2005-03-03 - good times. great life.
2005-03-01 - 30 days. Jen, Sleepy
2005-02-27 - At Jen's
2005-02-24 - Home
2005-02-23 - i'm going no where
2005-02-20 - Fear of abandonment
2005-02-18 - Slipping
2005-02-17 - Life Sucks Than You Die
2005-02-15 - Top 50 Shitty Day
2005-02-14 - dreamer
2005-02-12 - London bridges falling down
2005-02-09 - Julio thinks this is serious, or what?
2005-02-07 - Am I sinking further?
2005-02-06 - shitty life
2005-02-05 - Day 5
2005-02-04 - Am I really losing it?
2005-02-04 - Am I really losing it?
2005-02-02 - Noble goals
2005-01-30 - A change of plans
2005-01-28 - 3 day test
2005-01-28 - 3 day test
2005-01-26 - The ball is in my court
2005-01-26 - A potential friend?
2005-01-25 - I'm different.
2005-01-22 - afraid of life
2005-01-21 - I plan to turn strawberry flavored
2005-01-20 - the hate just grows as the days grow on
2005-01-18 - I should just give up
2005-01-17 - what's the point of waking up
2005-01-15 - childhood memories
2005-01-14 - Shin splints, dad boots the fam
2005-01-13 - The loneliness kills
2005-01-11 - After Holiday appt with Julio
2005-01-10 - Let me disapear
2005-01-09 - I think I have a plan
2005-01-07 - die die die die die die die die die die die
2005-01-07 - Tick Tock Tick Tock
2005-01-05 - Redundancy...bad days are getting boring.
2005-01-04 - Everything is great. Everything is good. Shoot me.
2005-01-02 - It's all over
2005-01-01 - Just eat the bloody chocolate
2005-01-01 - Healthy or disapearing?
2004-12-31 - rerun on day three
2004-12-30 - Not Thinking About Food?
2004-12-29 - Going insanely obsessed
2004-12-27 - 2 days free
2004-12-26 - One Small Step For Me
2004-12-26 - Cease purge
2004-12-23 - Crawl up and cry
2004-12-21 - nothingness
2004-12-19 - Recovery "Dream"
2004-12-17 - Shutting my mind off
2004-12-15 - Should I Stay or Should I Go?
2004-12-14 - bloody exhausted
2004-12-08 - Sleeping Sickness take 2
2004-12-06 - UCLA
2004-12-05 - Think Angry Thoughts...
2004-12-03 - I'm dying
2004-12-02 - I hate you
2004-11-30 - My Oh My
2004-11-27 - Ohio Mid-Trip
2004-11-25 - -
2004-11-24 - Did I go too far?
2004-11-22 - The flu and Thanksgiving
2004-11-20 - Too much sleep. Weight loss. Slacker T.
2004-11-17 - I'm sick of my sickness.
2004-11-15 - I tried to be perfect
2004-11-11 - Pissed Pissed Pissed. Die Julio.
2004-11-09 - Wand Poll
2004-11-06 - got out today!
2004-11-03 - Julio disapointment
2004-10-31 - To be or not to be.
2004-10-29 - My Suicidal Dream
2004-10-26 - I don't know anymore.
2004-10-24 - Violent purging
2004-10-21 - Not a good person
2004-10-18 - shut my head off
2004-10-16 - get up get dressed get out
2004-10-12 - Julio thought of me.
2004-10-07 - Tears are not therapeutic
2004-10-05 - Something?
2004-10-03 - My sister's and I heart to heart
2004-09-29 - Fuck me
2004-09-25 - All I think about is food
2004-09-22 - throbbing
2004-09-21 - Exaustionnnnnnnnnn
2004-09-16 - Another ticket
2004-09-13 - Something's Gotta Give
2004-09-11 - I'm disgusting
2004-09-09 - Treatment
2004-09-08 - Screw Recovery
2004-09-04 - Manicccccccc
2004-09-01 - School. Julio. Nothing exciting.
2004-08-31 - -
2004-08-29 - I'm a loser baby.
2004-08-25 - more stealing
2004-08-22 - Spiraling down down down....
2004-08-18 - Exausted
2004-08-17 - I still don't have answers
2004-08-16 - I've changed my mind
2004-08-14 - A bunch of rambles.
2004-08-10 - Empty
2004-08-06 - Money Money Money
2004-08-05 - I made my grave
2004-08-03 - The whole Hawaii summary
2004-07-24 - Off to the Islands
2004-07-22 - Hawaii, drinking party
2004-07-21 - Walked in on a group meeting at a Hospital
2004-07-20 - pre-hawaii
2004-07-19 - Fail Fail Fail
2004-07-16 - hole. hole. hole.
2004-07-14 - Just want to binge.
2004-07-11 - Get a grip
2004-07-09 - Give me a life.
2004-07-06 - More questions about treatment
2004-07-03 - The hole in my heart is endless.
2004-06-30 - What's on my mind today.
2004-06-25 - My sister's BBQ Bday
2004-06-23 - Juliooooo
2004-06-21 - I'm dying
2004-06-20 - My body is calling it quits
2004-06-18 - Insatiable hunger
2004-06-16 - Treatment?
2004-06-14 - Something's very wrong with this picture.
2004-06-10 - I'm losing my mind
2004-06-05 - Doughnuts
2004-05-31 - Suckity Suck Suck.
2004-05-28 - -
2004-05-27 - Grocery store woes.
2004-05-23 - Just getting worse.
2004-05-20 - I have become comfortably numb
2004-05-17 - Nothing exciting.
2004-05-13 - Wondering about treatments - BQ
2004-05-08 - Alex's Dad Doctor
2004-05-07 - sex, drugs, and....weight?
2004-05-05 - "You will suck the life out of me"
2004-05-04 - Regret
2004-05-02 - I'm just sick and tired.
2004-04-28 - can't sleep
2004-04-26 - Ready to die.
2004-04-23 - birthday update
2004-04-21 - questions questions
2004-04-19 - Doctors, sister knows
2004-04-15 - -
2004-04-13 - Bad.
2004-04-11 - my god damn fucking leg.
2004-04-09 - Sick in the head.
2004-04-05 - Failure.
2004-03-31 - numbing and sharp pain in leg
2004-03-30 - I don't care.
2004-03-29 - Make a wish.
2004-03-26 - Sleeeeep.
2004-03-24 - Pastor drama/locking diary
2004-03-21 - -
2004-03-19 - It's always raining in my head.
2004-03-17 - Lock Diary/ Police/ Julio
2004-03-15 - FUCK YOU
2004-03-13 - Nothing.
2004-03-10 - Exaustion. Motherly dream.
2004-03-08 - How to fight the loneliness
2004-03-05 - Mad Binge
2004-03-04 - Space Cadet
2004-03-01 - Drained.
2004-02-26 - Falling apart.
2004-02-22 - Clothing
2004-02-21 - Sometimes
2004-02-18 - Getting mad at Julio
2004-02-17 - Alone. Trance.
2004-02-13 - drowning slowly
2004-02-10 - It sounds so ridiculous but I can't lick this.
2004-02-09 - piece of shit day. make it go away.
2004-02-06 - I have an eating disorder.
2004-02-04 - nothing.
2004-02-02 - Too much stuff.
2004-01-30 - Riddle me this, Riddle me that
2004-01-26 - Day after day. It's all the same.
2004-01-23 - so many questions, so many changes.
2004-01-20 - Julio appointment after 6 weeks
2004-01-19 - bad bad fucking day
2004-01-17 - my mom is getting worse.
2004-01-16 - Julio dream
2004-01-15 - I'm sorry. I don't want to go to a hospital
2004-01-14 - dying. die. death.
2004-01-13 - manic mode.
2004-01-12 - My brother and a bunch of other shit
2004-01-11 - wake me up if i'm dreaming
2004-01-08 - I don't know
2004-01-06 - I wish I may, I wish I might
2004-01-05 - I have nothing.
2004-01-05 - i can't do this.
2004-01-03 - meaningless, meaningless, everything is meaningless
2004-01-02 - Rum and coke
2003-12-31 - I don't want the new year
2003-12-30 - My eating disordered family
2003-12-29 - Email to hippo
2003-12-28 - Thoughts on bulimia
2003-12-26 - reflection on xmas
2003-12-25 - merry christmas.
2003-12-24 - christmas eve
2003-12-23 - scared.
2003-12-22 - sick of being the listener, record clock
2003-12-20 - volunteers to re-do diary
2003-12-19 - she's getting worse.
2003-12-18 - 85
2003-12-17 - 86
2003-12-16 - i hate me.
2003-12-13 - 87.5
2003-12-12 - medication/julio email
2003-12-09 - Julio appt - xmas gift/bulimia avoiding
2003-12-07 - tired of this routine
2003-12-04 - i am
2003-12-01 - i don't want to live.
2003-11-30 - My evening last night. Hair loss this morning
2003-11-27 - turkey day and the thin
2003-11-26 - loneliness
2003-11-25 - i'm not schizo.
2003-11-24 - Scared I'm going to go crazy
2003-11-20 - up and down up and down
2003-11-17 - I'm just tired.
2003-11-12 - Julio says I'm bipolar
2003-11-08 - thinking of ways to die
2003-11-07 - fired
2003-11-05 - I'm simply going mad.
2003-11-04 - Be careful with me
2003-11-02 - I've lost all meaning
2003-10-30 - she's drowning slowly
2003-10-27 - KAPLAN.
2003-10-22 - Manic
2003-10-20 - My evening.
2003-10-20 - Me.
2003-10-19 - End of my rope
2003-10-19 - some ponders.
2003-10-17 - no hope
2003-10-16 - no more Julio
2003-10-12 - October
2003-10-09 - I DON'T KNOW
2003-10-05 - What's new.
2003-09-29 - questiosn for julio?
2003-09-25 - and then I said
2003-09-21 - diet pills
2003-09-19 - fear of food
2003-09-18 - Missing you
2003-09-14 - hate myself
2003-09-13 - this isn't fair
2003-09-10 - must lose.
2003-09-02 - should i quit therapy?
2003-08-26 - bipolar and ocd??
2003-08-25 - I'm hardly here
2003-08-20 - Time bomb
2003-08-16 - dad calling me fat
2003-08-14 - I'm a mistake
2003-08-10 - numb
2003-08-08 - What have I done?
2003-08-06 - The big Depression.
2003-07-31 - going down hill
2003-07-28 - i'm about to snap
2003-07-26 - after mead
2003-07-19 - Lake mead prep
2003-07-17 - another day, more exaustion
2003-07-15 - Have I hit rock bottem yet?
2003-07-13 - edie knows i'm bulimic
2003-07-11 - people noticing weight loss
2003-07-10 - My mother the heartless bitch
2003-07-08 - Doing....better? What a foreign word.
2003-07-06 - Julio dreams
2003-07-05 - Fourth of July
2003-07-02 - Maybe
2003-07-01 - No one likes me
2003-06-29 - too tired to care
2003-06-28 - I could be so much more than this
2003-06-28 - new low
2003-06-25 - julio meeting
2003-06-23 - Sick
2003-06-22 - EDA meeting, binge, mother
2003-06-19 - no appetite
2003-06-18 - Meeeeeeetings
2003-06-16 - OA
2003-06-15 - ANAD, father's day
2003-06-14 - dead death dying die kill me fucking now
2003-06-13 - lonely
2003-06-12 - alone
2003-06-10 - Julio What If's and Hospital
2003-06-09 - die. julio. blah blah
2003-06-07 - suicide
2003-06-03 - I remember
2003-06-02 - curtain call
2003-06-01 - medication
2003-06-01 - black walls
2003-05-31 - Redecorating
2003-05-29 - "..."
2003-05-28 - 89
2003-05-27 - appointment with julio
2003-05-26 - I want to give up
2003-05-25 - should I stay or should I go
2003-05-23 - 2 medium pizzas and a lonely day
2003-05-22 - make it stop
2003-05-22 - Just a trace of the person I once was
2003-05-21 - I'm in someone else's control
2003-05-20 - school, car, pills
2003-05-18 - binge
2003-05-18 - Crazy anger, back 90, ANAD
2003-05-18 - CAR
2003-05-17 - Rushed binge
2003-05-17 - Fed up
2003-05-16 - story of my life
2003-05-14 - car, ANAD group
2003-05-13 - Gave Julio letter, Dad knows
2003-05-12 - Julio's letter
2003-05-12 - michelle. mother's day.
2003-05-11 - Michelle
2003-05-10 - dhfthfghfg
2003-05-08 - ambivalent
2003-05-06 - life
2003-05-05 - Drained
2003-05-05 - Teeth. Back to 90
2003-05-03 - Dad fight regarding car
2003-05-03 - My parent's mistake
2003-05-01 - alcohol
2003-05-01 - Julio email
2003-05-01 - curling iron
2003-04-30 - voices
2003-04-29 - Julio brokeness cry for help
2003-04-29 - ---
2003-04-27 - decisions
2003-04-26 - sad
2003-04-24 - BQ, power outage at school, Prom
2003-04-24 - 85 is still my goal
2003-04-23 - pizza irony
2003-04-23 - So scared
2003-04-22 - Happy Happy Birthday
2003-04-21 - birthday "wishes"
2003-04-20 - can't
2003-04-20 - No more weightloss
2003-04-19 - back from mexico
2003-04-13 - Not ready for mexico
2003-04-11 - mom has no hope 92
2003-04-10 - sick
2003-04-10 - not so bad
2003-04-09 - I want to be thin
2003-04-09 - headache
2003-04-07 - slept for shit
2003-04-06 - frustration with father
2003-04-05 - diet pills for mexico
2003-04-04 - I will never have a mother.
2003-04-04 - The clock is ticking. This isn't happening.
2003-04-03 - jobs suck
2003-04-02 - day of food
2003-04-01 - Best thing since sliced bread
2003-04-01 - help
2003-03-31 - die die die
2003-03-31 - lonely
2003-03-31 - fed up with life
2003-03-31 - No. I'm not alive.
2003-03-30 - start living or start dying
2003-03-30 - nothing new
2003-03-29 - 90 lbs?
2003-03-27 - prozac nation
2003-03-27 - embarresment with mom
2003-03-27 - tears of joy
2003-03-26 - Day 2
2003-03-25 - sound of my heartbeat
2003-03-25 - dandy
2003-03-25 - failure
2003-03-25 - long day
2003-03-24 - run run run as fast as you can
2003-03-24 - no thanks
2003-03-23 - sobbing over mom phone
2003-03-23 - boring
2003-03-21 - purged a PEAR?
2003-03-21 - 93 again
2003-03-20 - therapist meeting
2003-03-19 - what the fuck am i doing to my life?
2003-03-17 - green vomit
2003-03-17 - going no where fast
2003-03-16 - what good will it do
2003-03-15 - give up.
2003-03-15 - no expectation
2003-03-14 - crying, pictures, all alone
2003-03-13 - so alone
2003-03-13 - dying
2003-03-12 - left behind
2003-03-12 - too much too much too much
2003-03-11 - school
2003-03-11 - a hundred million miles away
2003-03-10 - excessive crying mystery
2003-03-10 - depressed
2003-03-09 - I give up
2003-03-09 - nothing
2003-03-08 - I'm just fucking fed up
2003-03-08 - killed myself yesterday
2003-03-07 - all alone
2003-03-07 - ---
2003-03-07 - Love hunger. Love feeling of thin
2003-03-06 - Julio 3/5/03
2003-03-05 - weight loss therapist topics
2003-03-04 - christie cry binge purge bed
2003-03-04 - kill me.
2003-03-03 - i don't know
2003-03-03 - I gained weight
2003-03-01 - weird purge
2003-03-01 - library 93
2003-02-28 - ramblings of a girl losing her mind
2003-02-27 - family memories
2003-02-27 - can't
2003-02-27 - BQ and Dad
2003-02-26 - guestbook and psych
2003-02-25 - julio appt
2003-02-25 - time to go
2003-02-24 - cry
2003-02-24 - truth
2003-02-24 - i don't know what to do
2003-02-23 - -
2003-02-23 - conclussions
2003-02-22 - survived
2003-02-21 - 30 hour famine
2003-02-20 - i don't know
2003-02-19 - underweight? bmi 17.5
2003-02-18 - binge
2003-02-18 - PMS
2003-02-17 - Reasons why I might be thin
2003-02-17 - 80 calories
2003-02-15 - end of my rope
2003-02-15 - too much
2003-02-15 - i'd rather be dreaming than living
2003-02-14 - sore throat purge
2003-02-14 - pencil lead
2003-02-14 - this bitter pill is leaving me
2003-02-13 - Complaints
2003-02-12 - hate hate hate me
2003-02-12 - blah de blah
2003-02-11 - not too shabby
2003-02-11 - almost fainting shower
2003-02-10 - lifeless
2003-02-09 - crash and burn
2003-02-07 - retreat
2003-02-06 - -
2003-02-06 - pie
2003-02-06 - hm hm hm.
2003-02-04 - -
2003-02-02 - all alone
2003-02-02 - Leslie's car.
2003-02-02 - shattered
2003-01-31 - angry
2003-01-31 - some things never change
2003-01-30 - over
2003-01-30 - scared
2003-01-30 - Aimee
2003-01-29 - realize
2003-01-29 - mascara
2003-01-28 - I hate these short description things
2003-01-28 - rambling ramble ramble
2003-01-27 - Something wrong with this picture
2003-01-27 - dying
2003-01-26 - figures.
2003-01-25 - poll
2003-01-25 - my morning
2003-01-24 - dumb fuck.
2003-01-23 - Losing my mind
2003-01-22 - life is a waste
2003-01-21 - scared
2003-01-20 - Thoughts from Mel.
2003-01-20 - -
2003-01-18 - thought 2?
2003-01-18 - a thought.
2003-01-18 - update.
2003-01-17 - insane
2003-01-17 - shoplifting sleep.
2003-01-16 - hard night.
2003-01-16 - -
2003-01-15 - I'm too scared to think of a name.
2003-01-14 - rambly
2003-01-11 - i don't know what happened
2003-01-11 - crack whore
2003-01-11 - -
2003-01-11 - topamax
2003-01-10 - blah de blah
2003-01-09 - -
2003-01-07 - damn
2003-01-07 - 95? 97?
2003-01-07 - -
2003-01-06 - -
2003-01-06 - lock
2003-01-06 - -
2003-01-06 - hopeless
2003-01-06 - nauseous
2003-01-05 - hope.
2003-01-05 - Had Enough
2003-01-04 - -
2003-01-04 - irritated
2003-01-04 - hurt fat
2003-01-04 - why not
2003-01-04 - my parents
2003-01-04 - stop
2003-01-03 - this has got to stop
2003-01-02 - scars
2003-01-02 - zann
2003-01-02 - sometimes
2003-01-01 - happy new year?
2002-12-31 - older entrie page
2002-12-31 - Updates
2002-12-30 - and you're my obession
2002-12-30 - shower
2002-12-30 - wake up
2002-12-29 - gbook reply
2002-12-28 - help
2002-12-28 - -
2002-12-28 - mistake
2002-12-28 - thank you
2002-12-27 - waste
2002-12-26 - christmas mall crying la de da
2002-12-24 - strange breed
2002-12-23 - weirdness
2002-12-23 - dazed
2002-12-23 - -
2002-12-22 - -
2002-12-22 - -
2002-12-22 - Ramble ramble
2002-12-21 - fucked up
2002-12-20 - -
2002-12-20 - damn
2002-12-18 - angry
2002-12-18 - ---
2002-12-18 - sound of my heartbeat
2002-12-15 - fuck
2002-12-14 - weight
2002-12-14 - mom
2002-12-13 - short
2002-12-11 - -
2002-12-09 - Disneyland
2002-12-08 - -
2002-12-08 - -
2002-12-08 - Help
2002-12-07 - failure
2002-12-07 - traffic school
2002-12-06 - no
2002-12-06 - update, finally.
2002-12-05 - bed
2002-12-04 - -
2002-12-02 - him
2002-12-01 - -
2002-12-01 - fucked up.
2002-11-30 - slipping
2002-11-29 - fuck
2002-11-28 - choking
2002-11-28 - bleh
2002-11-27 - mm
2002-11-26 - 94
2002-11-25 - tired of today
2002-11-22 - 93.5
2002-11-21 - updat
2002-11-19 - ;fhfhtyr
2002-11-18 - -
2002-11-16 - losing my mind
2002-11-14 - i don't care
2002-11-13 - tired
2002-11-11 - my ritual
2002-11-10 - sad
2002-11-09 - thin will win
2002-11-09 - better off dead
2002-11-07 - bed. death
2002-11-06 - exausted
2002-11-05 - end it before it started
2002-11-04 - -
2002-11-03 - Zzzz
2002-11-02 - again and again
2002-11-02 - blah
2002-10-31 - ya ya ya
2002-10-30 - julio, traffic school, pills
2002-10-30 - short stories with tragic endings
2002-10-29 - die
2002-10-28 - why
2002-10-28 - losing my mind
2002-10-27 - mercury rising
2002-10-26 - 95.5
2002-10-25 - bored
2002-10-25 - questionare.
2002-10-25 - miss
2002-10-25 - mmhmm
2002-10-24 - help
2002-10-24 - fail
2002-10-23 - good mehl.
2002-10-22 - miss.
2002-10-22 - blah
2002-10-22 - fuck
2002-10-21 - kill me
2002-10-21 - nothing matters
2002-10-20 - too much
2002-10-20 - morning after
2002-10-19 - car crash
2002-10-19 - everything and anything
2002-10-18 - she is i am
2002-10-18 - get home
2002-10-18 - I'm screaming for something
2002-10-17 - i wish
2002-10-17 - my fault
2002-10-17 - twister
2002-10-15 - Blah blah blah
2002-10-14 - 98? 96?
2002-10-14 - pills
2002-10-14 - I'm losing my mind
2002-10-13 - failure 101
2002-10-13 - him
2002-10-13 - -
2002-10-13 - -
2002-10-13 - blood, 97
2002-10-12 - so this is odd. the painful realization that all has gone wrong and nobody cares, nobody cares at all
2002-10-12 - dead
2002-10-11 - meaningless
2002-10-11 - meaningless
2002-10-11 - self improvement
2002-10-10 - better
2002-10-09 - goodbye
2002-10-08 - -
2002-10-08 - i'm insane
2002-10-08 - failure
2002-10-06 - short story
2002-10-06 - Laxatives, binge
2002-10-06 - Laxatives, binge
2002-10-06 - This is all shit
2002-10-02 - Rings
2002-10-05 - new layout
2002-10-05 - underweight?
2002-10-05 - why do I even bother
2002-10-04 - i need you to show me the way from crazy
2002-10-04 - 9797979797979797979797979797979797979799797
2002-10-03 - slow. depressed. binge binge binge.
2002-10-02 - empty
2002-10-02 - flashback
2002-10-02 - more pictures
2002-09-30 - thinner
2002-09-29 - holy fuck
2002-09-26 - severe bulimia? hospital?
2002-09-24 - -
2002-09-20 - crazy
2002-09-19 - *sigh*
2002-09-18 - -
2002-09-17 - therapist
2002-09-15 - Hello/Goodbye
2002-09-14 - ache
2002-09-13 - out of control
2002-09-12 - dead
2002-09-11 - -
2002-09-09 - control
2002-09-08 - help me
2002-09-05 - YES!!!
2002-09-04 - Did you even know?
2002-09-02 - death
2002-09-02 - die
2002-09-01 - empty
2002-08-31 - gjdklfdhg
2002-08-30 - binge purge
2002-08-29 - Control
2002-08-27 - food
2002-08-24 - meds
2002-08-23 - falling apart inside and out
2002-08-21 - eat often
2002-08-19 - tears wont stop
2002-08-17 - screwed
2002-08-15 - psych appt.
2002-08-09 - bad night
2002-08-09 - never be okay
2002-08-05 - guestbook reaction
2002-08-04 - pictures of everything
2002-08-03 - I'm tired of this.
2002-08-01 - back
2002-07-28 - gone
2002-07-26 - who cares
2002-07-24 - damnit
2002-07-24 - Dream
2002-07-22 - fuck you
2002-07-22 - brief update
2002-07-18 - 97
2002-07-18 - -
2002-07-17 - 99
2002-07-16 - no more pills
2002-07-16 - who cares anymore
2002-07-15 - last night
2002-07-14 - I don't know
2002-07-12 - erase food
2002-07-11 - Fuck me
2002-07-09 - Rambeling
2002-07-08 - i dont even know anymore
2002-07-07 - dead
2002-07-05 - -
2002-07-04 - dfgdfghgh
2002-07-03 - feh. same old same old
2002-07-01 - brunch, 99
2002-06-30 - new rule
2002-06-29 - youth pastor, tired
2002-06-28 - ache
2002-06-26 - therapist, binge
2002-06-26 - damn arms
2002-06-24 - meh. 2 lbs.
2002-06-23 - confessions
2002-06-23 - meh
2002-06-22 - weighing in
2002-06-19 - painful realization
2002-06-18 - feh
2002-06-17 - die alone
2002-06-16 - eating out, Klif
2002-06-16 - the usual
2002-06-14 - eating, cuts, therapy blah.
2002-06-13 - the world didnt stop spinning
2002-06-13 - no more therapist
2002-06-12 - *dreamy sigh*
2002-06-11 - therapist today
2002-06-08 - more weight shit
2002-06-07 - food is trash
2002-06-05 - bleed
2002-06-04 - food
2002-06-02 - running away
2002-05-29 - depression
2002-05-29 - tired
2002-05-27 - my night
2002-05-25 - complain
2002-05-24 - heather
2002-05-23 - no eating
2002-05-22 - running away
2002-05-22 - foolish
2002-05-21 - dead.
2002-05-20 - holy fuck. im insane.
2002-05-15 - dizzy. weigh in. therapist
2002-05-14 - Klif
2002-05-14 - goodbye cruel world
2002-05-13 - cutting
2002-05-10 - breakdown
2002-05-09 - My Way
2002-05-07 - junk
2002-04-28 - friends/death/questions
2002-04-24 - falling apart
2002-04-23 - suicide
2002-04-16 - heart on shelf
2002-04-14 - crazy night
2002-04-14 - poem
2002-05-09 - Suicide
2002-05-08 - tired
2002-03-25 - untitled
2002-03-19 - more venting
2002-03-19 - Uh..ya.
2002-03-16 - -
2002-03-15 - Poem
2002-03-15 - -
2002-03-14 - aw. Deperssion is back.
2002-03-13 - blah
2002-03-12 - Everything
2002-02-16 - happy?
2002-02-16 - suicide
2002-03-09 - selfish
2002-02-08 - food sucks
2002-02-05 - therapist and god
2002-02-01 - death
2002-02-01 - Life
2002-01-30 - purge
2002-01-28 - dream
2002-01-25 - reliazation
2002-01-20 - IT
2002-01-13 - fuck up.
2002-01-09 - wondering
2002-01-08 - my day
2002-01-05 - lonely
2002-01-05 - fear
2002-01-01 - depression
2002-01-01 - everything
2002-12-31 - im so fucking tired
2002-12-30 - -
2002-12-29 - dead
2002-12-27 - isnane
2002-12-27 - pointless
2002-12-25 - insane
2002-12-25 - ranting
2001-12-24 - book
2001-12-24 - i dont want to be here
2001-12-24 - home
2001-12-20 - sick of life
2001-12-20 - fast
2001-12-19 - home
2001-12-17 - mmm
2001-12-16 - unpurposeful
2001-12-14 - *sigh*
2001-12-10 - why
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