2002-10-08, 8:21 a.m.

I want to quit. Life. Everything. I am a failure. At everything. I can't lose weight, I can't drive without nearly killing myself, I can't do school. I woke up and couldn't go. So here I sit. I'm a fucking failure and I want to quit NOW.

she said kill me faster with strawberry gashes all over, all over

I can't stand her fucking words reminding me that I'm a failure. I can't stand the scale reminding me I am failure. My body, my grades, my friends. They are all screaming at me FAILURE FAILURE FAILURE and I can't block out of the fucking noise anymore. KILL ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW!