2005-05-03, 11:15 p.m.

I'm exercising every day, barely eating, and purging most of what I am keeping down, so why the FUCK am I gaining so much weight?! I've never been this high of weight and NOT BEEN ABLE TO GET IT OFF. I'M FUCKING IN A PANIC AND READY TO CHOP A LEG OFF.
Not to mention depressed. I haven't gone to school nor done school work all week. I also have a test on Thursday for psychology and I seriously can't get a grip. I'm on so many diet and caffiene pills to relax. YET EVERYDAY I WORK OUT AND DON'T EAT I GAIN WEIGHT.
I have therapy tomorrow. Don't know if I'm going. Too fat.