2002-02-01, 10:16 p.m.

"Declared heathly. Im sent back into the world. My final diagnosis: A recovered borderline. What that means I still don't know. Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is. Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret, its you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie, and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever. They were not perfect, but they were my friends..."

Life is crazy. I wish the whole world would die. That we would all get bombed and died. I hate life. If I wasnt so resonable, I'd be the most fucked up thing in the world. I don't want to think anymore. Im going to take a sleeping pill and goto sleep. I can't stand this day more or less this life.

swallow, choke, and die