2002-04-23, 10:10 p.m.

a fellow diaryland member that ive been reading for quite some time tried to commit suicide.

i admire her so much.

it scares me, because i thought it was suppose to be easier than that. she didnt succeed.

i almost feel bad for her. that she didnt die. because i know what its like to want to die...and how you dont care if your being selfish to the world...

Razors pain you;

Rivers are damp;

Acids stain you;

And drugs cause cramp.

Guns aren't lawful;

Nooses give;

Gas smells awful;

You might as well live.

--Dorothy Parker


im so tired of this life, this confusion, this roller coaster of emotions. nothing makes sense. this is so stupid. fuck you god. fuck everyone.