2002-05-09, 7:41 p.m.
overeating. bad. it seems i sway from eating nothing to eating everything in sight. *sigh* this is two days in a row. i just want to fill myself with something other then these thoughts of wanting to die.
like it helps.
I drag a blade across my skin
to stop the pain deep within
down i tug the sleeve of my shirt
so not one person will see my hurt
one more day i cannot breath
stop the pain from underneath
my body trembles to the beat of my heart
while i watch myself fall apart
with a razor and blood i release
hoping it will bring some kind of peace
wipe the tears from my lashes
float in the throbbing of my slashes
hold myself together tight
empty days waiting for night
sleepless dreams staring at the ceiling
I have no other way of dealing