2002-09-15, 11:34 p.m.

I learned something about myself tonight: I like laxatives

Weigh in fully clothed: 100.5

Not any chance of being 95 by tuesday but it sure beets the 102 I read this morning.

I also wrote something. It's really plain, simple, striaght foward, boring. I wrote in literally probably 3 minutes. It came to me over the toilet. Enjoy.

goodbye hope
goodbye joy
goodbye love
goodbye boy

down goes pills
down goes beer
down goes dreams
down goes tears

hello regret
hello pain
hello hopeless
hello insane

goodbye today
goodbye sorrow
as I pick up this gun
goodbye tommorow

It doesn't mean anything so don't worry about pretending you care that I might commit suicide. I won't.