2003-05-06, 11:59 p.m.

go to school. fail tests. eat till i'm bored. purge till i'm sick. get dizzy. i'm really dizzy and weak all the time. it's like there is no inbetween binge and empty. i'm either sick from a binge and weak and sick from purging myself empty. my body is exausted. my mind is exausted. my heart is exausted. i can't sleep. my mind is racing too much. i'm waiting for something good to happen. waiting for something to keep me going.

nothings happening.

there's a fear that burns inside me that builds and is fed with every breath of life.