2007-02-07, 4:45 p.m.

i am still alive.
i haven't updated because i'm playing the denial game. i'm fine. great. dandy. i have no issues that need to be confronted instead i try not to think about them.
i don't think i sound very convincing.
i need help. I don't want to go into details because that is emotionally hard. here is the latest ken and i are still broken up and we still fuck. i'm worried i'm turning into his call girl. i saw rita at st. josephs yesterday. julio isn't helpful lately. i'm lonely lonely lonely i want to quit meth. i'm afraid of what it's doing to me. i see what it's doing and i need to quit. i'm taking one class. i haven't done anything that makes me think i deserve living in ages. i'm on adderall now. /end