2001-12-17, 2:55 p.m.

mmm. i finally cut. I love the feelings of my clothes rubbing against the cuts on my forearm. that stinging throbbing feeling is my favorite part of cutting. Its one of the major reasons I cut. Its worth it to have to deal with clean up of all my blood to have this feeling afterwards. I love the feeling of the blade across my skin and the blood slowly appearing where i cut and then into little beads. the deeper it is, the faster the blood appears, and the farmiliar throbbing feeling last longer. Its so lovely.