2002-12-25, 10:22 p.m.
I fear as if all my sanity has turned into confusion. I want to cry, but the tears never come. I fear one more day in this hell hole home I will break again.
I want to die. be gone forever
i cant stand this shit hole life
shit hole home
shit hole "family"
just cut and make things worse
can it be i rather sleep in this gutter than return to my home?
who am i to decide what to do when i dont evne know why m doing this?
nothing, no one, will ever understand this hell...
im wishing i was never born
cut and die, being torn
cant see clearly through tear filled eyes
cant think right with a head full of lies
heavenly home is my wish
im just so tired of living like this
if jesus christ is by my side
end this all and let me die
t hurts. God make it stop. everything is hopeless and everynight i question why i goto sleep just to wake up to a new day of trying to function with a broken heart God it just doesnt make sense. the only answer i can come up with is that your not here and im writing to a nothing through my stressed crazed mind. its hard to look at the world posistively through tear filled eyes. kill me softly taking me torment away.