2002-01-05, 1:32 p.m.

i have a constant fear thats something wrong with me. ill goto the doctor and say i have something wrong with my stomach even though nothings wrong with it. i just want them to check it out. i called my therapist office to try to get an earlier appointment, and they didnt have any so they said they'll give me the next cancelation. blahhhhhhhh i cant stand this. im going to goto sleep. thats all i really do anymore. i take sleeping pills, goto sleep, wake up, take more sleeping pills...i dont even want to think anymore.