2002-09-01, 12:10 p.m.
I just want to die. I really, really do. Everything is hopeless and everything is just going to get worse. I want to die before that happens.
Ever get where everything just sets you off? Where you just are on the brim with anger and frustration and sadness and depression and self pity and hopelessness? Where something as little as dropping your change in a store makes you rush out and start sobbing on the sidewalk? Where everything just feels hopeless and stupid? Where you don't even bother crying anymore because, hey, what's the point? Everything is hopeless and all the crying in the world isn't going to change that. Everything is worthless and nothing is going to change that.
...then...you just feel empty. Because you have nothing.
Ever feel like that?
I can't even describe how terrible that feeling is. How empty and scary and hopeless it is. i just want to die.