2004-02-21, 8:15 p.m.

sometimes, I just don't want to talk about it.

I don't want to hear that you're praying or you think I can beat this.

I don't want you to tell me that you think I can do this.

Sometimes, silence is better than those type of words.

Because I don't believe you.

And I don't want to think about this sometimes. Can we just not talk about this sometimes? Does this always have to be the topic of our discussions?

Don't you think that it's on my mind from the moment I wake up to the second I go to sleep? And even in my dreams I am haunted with it.

Just drop it.

Let me forget for a little while.