can't sleep
2004-04-28, 10:00 p.m.

I'm sleeping terribly. I wake up at weird hours with a shock, and shoot straight up in bed. I toss and turn, like I'm in fear. Then I fall back into sleep with my heart pounding. Hours later, I wake up with a gasp again, and toss violently over, with fear in my heart.

In the morning, no matter how much sleep I got, I feel worn and exausted. My undereyes have bags and I feel like sleeping forever. My whole body feels like lead.