the hate just grows as the days grow on
2005-01-20, 4:29 p.m.

The hate for myself is growing intensly.
Managed not to binge two days ago, failed yesterday.
hi, my name is mel. i'm a lonely, jobless, friendless, loser whose family hates her because she's bitter and too outspoken. Not too mention I suck all their money, refuse to get a job, am going to junior college, mope around the house all day, and eat like shit.
I am shit.
I feel like shit.
It's nearly 5:00 and I haven't spoken to anyone all day. The only sounds i've heard are the voices of music and TV. My telephone or cell phone hasn't rang all day.
No one wants me.
I don't want me.
die you fat fucking loser.