the cycle of using
2006-07-24, 9:07 p.m.

Today I felt better. My energy was back and I felt semi normal. I was motivated to stay clean. It's been nearly 5 days. Then in a span of two hours, I got desparate. I needed something. I scraped my pipe and smoke nothing. I opened a strattera and snorted it. The pain was fucking terrible. 2 hours later I still feel like shit from doing that. My nose won't stop running and i'm blowing out bloody snot. Fuck. What did I do? Did I burn holes in my nose?
It's so bloody hot and I feel so shitty. I think this guy is going to smoke me out tomorrow and i'm excited yet annoyed with myself. I don't want to crash again but I can't turn down an opportunity for free meth.
I'm going to go to bed and end this shitty day.