2006-09-26, 9:57 p.m.

I finally saw Joe. I had not seen him since late August and I saw him two nights ago.
I coordinated a drug deal between him and Dan. When he came to pick up, I was in the car. He barely met my eyes and barely showed any interest. It broke me inside.
After that I realized how full of shit Joe can be. We've been talking on the phone or texting everyday it's not the same. He's cold, distant, and brainwashed by his girlfriend. I miss his face and his touch. Two days ago he told me we could meet for lunch this week and today he said he'd call me "later." I said "uh huh." trying to clearly state how i didn't believe him.
god i miss him.